Ragon

I think i am living through motion. Everyday when i wake up. Everyday when i go to school. When i beathe, when i live. There is really nothing to look forward to. Nothing to wake up to. Can someone tell me what should i look forward to? beside the fact that i am still alive and i should enjoy life.

After a while it becomes a motion. There is no objective, no goal, nothing to look forward to and nothing to take back.

Anyway, area 1 atc is coming.. in 1 week.. hmmz.. i better plan for it.. otherwise i everything blur oso.. Tmr meeting HO kelvin n hao xing in the morning.. going down unit to sign probation form and then cmsk role play.. haha

Like nothing else to say leh.. besides the fact that a lot of ppl getting friendster blog (someone hit me on the head if i am wrong). School work aside, i just realised that i still have alumni maths mentoring scheme to complete.. And oso npcc cannot be used in my poly cca grades calculation scheme.. haiz..

Life is pretty down.. just got home at 1915 after a last minute cmsk project meeting.. still got to finish up the poster.. And print on the transparency… just hope tomorrow is not a cockup day..

oh yeah.. i learnt a new phrase today. If anything goes wrong, blame the PCI.. haha.. no comment =x Wad else? nothing else rite? i still need to write a formal letter and study..

Sian.. my computer just gotten spyware 2 days ago.. Now is feeling better. So sian.. I hate spyware. Wonder if there are any keyloggers in my computer? anyway, for the past few days it has been the same.. Me telling myself to study while the term test come closer like nobody’s business.

Anyway, flooded by essays in my inbox.. now my class deciding whether to have a study group.. kena flooded in msn.. hahaha.. its a wonder why the days are still so hot.

Anyway, just signed up for 2 star kayaking.. maybe get a lv 1 coach. Who knows.. haha.. With CMSK Project date nearing, PRSP date nearing, FNDB date also nearing.. then still have to go back during the vacation and then sign TG at TCC (where the hell is that) tomorrow.. How about NYAA?

I guess this is the start of the story of one guy.
One life.
One packed and screwed-up life..

i think if i keep on updating my blog so often, ppl’s inbox will be flooded with notices about my blog update… hahahaha

ANyway, today met kelvin (x2) to do LMSC admin stuff… Then a quick bite then home.. i bo liao right, so little things oso update blog.. but then cause i nothing to do.. so i anyhow update lor..

Ridzwan called me and told me that on Monday, Zul (x2), Azrul and himself are going to  sign up for kayaking at 1730. but then i got CMSK project discussion… i pray that the two events don’t clash. Anyway, the work load has just gotten slightly higher.. Still struggling to finish it before the next one comes…

haiz.. term test in 8 days time.. so sian.. haven even study.. just hope that alice is simple.. haha.. LT 2, seat 39.. must remember too… i think i go do admin and watch Spiderman.. can i multitask? we shall soon find out..

Today is the last day of LMSC. Everyone has gone home happy, those who attended will get a cert of participation. Those who didn’t won’t. All the cadets go home happy.. (i think) But now is where the admin work starts! 127 exam papers and particulars to go thru…

Played ‘open numbers’ at mac after the course.. came back home felt uneasy… feels horrible… I will never play ‘open number’ again. Then kelvin had to drink up at least 75% of the cup. The expression on his face was one that showed his revolted-ness when he tasted the whole cup.. okay.. must remember not to do silly things again.

Then come home.. Realised that i still have work to do. Exams in <2 weeks, and here i am still happily playing open numbers at mac. *shudders*.. Anyway, so glad that term is coming to and end.. then got term break.. can finally enjoy myself..

Speaking of enjoying, on the way back home, i thought that i could have at least tomorrow off to enjyo myself… sleep in late, etc.. but then i called down to do admin stuff for LMSC. Looks like there is a never ending work load. But i guess its how one looks at it. Perhaps when there is one day when there is nothing to do i would miss all this…

hahaha… lastly, welcome to area 9 Joey, shss PCI.. haha

If you were thinking i would write something that is "hot" here, you are wrong. There is nothing expect my summary of my life. Right? Right?

The time now is 0130 of 24 June 2005. I have to report at ESSS at 0730. Which leaves me only 6 hours of sleep. Ops.. there goes my 8 hrs of beauty sleep. Area 9’s Leadership Mentoring Skills Course falls on 24 and 25 June 2005 at East Spring Sec School. Wonder how a sleep deprived admin officer will take the attendance of >150 people within 30 mins inclusive of splitting everyone into their groups and worrying about how to cook milo for all of the cadets (hopes that ESSS has sufficient logistic to cook milo for >150 cadets)

This is week 5 of my school term. Funny.. i have people asking me when my poly starts. Or when does my holiday end. It has been 5 weeks already! School has started! In fact, it is ending. Term test coming right up. 2 weeks from now. All that seperates me and it is a week of school. A week of sleepy lectures, intensive tutorials and laggy labs.  But after that, one week of holiday! yay.. But think i going to JB to make my ic.. but that one can later think. Now is to think whether i have printed everything for the lmsc.

Oh well, didn’t get into ELF, a CCA in poly which i wanted to get in. Maybe i can attach myself to J05 ATF course? and sign up for NYAA Gold? who knows.. Although sleep deprived, i am quite happy with my lifestyle now. Living my life to the max, doing what i want to do. But of course not neglecting the academic part. So i have to email the nyaa guy… interesting.. CMSK project due in 7 days. We haven’t  even practiced our role play. Effendi, is the script out yet?

As i fight desperately to resist sleep. It creeps up on me like a silent predator. Making me miss lectures and other stuff that my attendance is required. Arugh! this cannot be. I can even sleep through an alarm clock blaring right into my ear. ITE has started school already. Next week sec school start too. Soon all the institution will resume its normal routine. Then there will be lesser people roaming about during office hours.. haha

ahh.. my eyes.. my head.. they have stopped functioning. I think i really need to shutdown. No, not my head, my computer. I shall end here ba.

zzzzz think i make this short la…

Basically the days have been the same.. living school.. learning as much as i can.. much laughs along the way.. but too many to list them down here. Today followed bendy to central to shop wif two of his friends.. interesting.. haha.. Then PRSP was taken over by someone besides mr peter choy.. first time i didn’t sleep in PRSP.

Another thing, i have been informed that everytime i update my blog, everyone gets updated.. hahaha.. so basically everyone gets to see my life.. haha.. maybe that’s why everyone using blogspot.. but then again.. i am lazy to remember so many ids and passwords… (so why not use the same as my friendster?) just one word.. lazy

Wow.. how many days have passed since i last created an entry? 2? 5? i seriously lost track of time. Not surprising when busy with stuff.

Maybe i should recamp. I mean, recap. Too many camps already. haha.. Thursday i attended the NCO camp. Taught a bit of lamp lighting. Then lesson interrupted by some cadet’s family matter. Apparently their family got something happen to their elderly member. So they had to withdraw the student from the camp. Then the valuable still in school. Ok lor.. come to school take valuable.. But then HO could not find the key or bag. Something liddat. Then resulted in a delay. Then i got scolded from his sister and father. Hmmz.. cannot blame them la. They must have been worried sick about their elderly family member that they decided to take out their anger on me by saying that i ignored their request, as a result making the whole process of passing their child’s valuables to be slowed down. When in actual fact that there was a delay and i couldn’t do anything to make it faster..  So what does this show? When people are angry they tend to lose their temper? Or when they are older or not related to you they can be rude, insult you and take out their anger on you? I dunno man.. I thought we were all polite people who knew how to ask for things nicely, instead of shouting rude comments and intimidating people? Or maybe i was so sleepy then that i totally misunderstood the anxiousness of the parent. No matter, what is done is done.  I believe that all of us have the apporiate skills to communicate with each other without offending the opposite party.

So after the lamp lighting, went home, sleep. Next day kena morning call by cadet and instructor. Then came to unit lor. At 1515 i went to TP for CMSK tutorial then back to unit for campfire. Hmmz… what shall i say about the campfire? very quiet. Cadets were not taking the lead. Firewood was not soaked. So no choice, had to make do. But it seems that the intensity of the fire determines the mood of the campers. Or am i wrong?

Campfire over liao. Go home. Next day ALP at TP. It was fun man.. Played trust fall (ELF Open hse play liao), traffic jam (LTC Play liao) and Mohawk. Some obstacle which really brought out the team-spirit in everyone. After that joined the instructors for lunch, followed by a quick rush home, some Black Hawk Down then 4e3 BBQ..

BBQ was fun (again). Although i forgot some of my classmates name, in the end, we all had a good time, disturbing keru and ethel. Wahahaha. Lua came down to BBQ as guest star. Talked about his Hai Sing Cat experience and the state of NAS now.

After BBQ, MRT home, and KO. Sunday had LMSC instructors meeting. Then at nite watch Rush Hour 2.. Then type this entry lor.. Sleepy liao… haiz.. another long week..

Think i crap enough already. End here? think i really should.

Finally… i have sufficient strength and concentration to do a blog entry. For the past two days have been mentally tiring for me. Lets see.. shall we start with yesterday? Tuesday, i met up with some ex-librarians (NAS MRL) for a movie treat by lao da. Of course it was after school la. Thanks so much for treating us. We watched the Madagascar. On whole, a pretty interesting watch, with much humour injected in it. Then it was dinner at Century Square food court then home. Sent sy back to her hse. Cause she scared to go home alone? not sure.. After i got home, did some homework and stuff then i went to sleep. Nothing interesting haha. Oh yeah, there was this book i was reading "Ash Road" that i gave up halfway cause my mind was totally in a mess and i was reading the book for the sake of reading it. Thus i decided that perhaps i should stop torturing myself by returning it to the library to let another person torture themselves.

Thursday was a okay day la. Went to school, meet Effendi waiting at the busstop for elina (as usual) then we all entered the LT. Same thing happened lor.. i keep on yawning and falling asleep in the LT. Too cosy liao. Then was CARC Lecture and Cmaths tutorial, and i realised that i did not bring my Cmaths book (again). So no choice, during my 2 hr break rush to library, get it done. Dammit.. must remember next week to bring.. otherwise cannot sleep during 2 hr break PRSP lecture was a complete blur. lecturer talking dunno what, just following blindly the textbook examples.

After school (finally) was a Sit and Stare (S&S) at Mary Brown (i have nv heard of this place b4) then quick rush over to central mac for a meeting with CI and HO Kelvin. I was kelvin-ed during the meeting. Then in the mac, i ate dinner lor.. there was this young and cute (?) ger serving me. She look like sec 3 or 4 only.. lol.. eye candy? hahaha

LMSC meeting over liao then come home and prepare. For? NCO, Sec 1, Lamp maintainence lesson, unit Campfire, ALP and BBQ. All these events in the following 3 days. So most prob i won’t even have time to blog for the rest of this week. Dun cry okay. haha yeah… i guess that’s it. Like very little liddat rite. Summore i still say it was metally tiring. Haha.. Maybe it was to me. Slowly getting used to poly lifestyle liao.. Shld be it liao.. now i go bathe, prepare my uniform(PCI rank *sob*) polish my boots(haiz) pack some clothes and i’ll be off to ngee ann sec at 0600 hrs tmr.

Dammit.. its only like 6+hrs of slp only.. Where is my standard 8 hrs of slp??? Well, i guess that’s life yeah? either u get yourself moving to overcome all the obstacles thrown in your face, or you let them pile on top of you until you can’t move and someone will rescue you. I wonder who will rescue me if i get trapped? haha

Learn to love what you’ve been taught to fear

Okay.. so we go straight to the point. What i did today. I thought that was what all blogs were for.. haha

My day was pretty simple. Woke at 1200, went down to Parkway for a standardisation meeting. On the way met this old lady who lived on the 20th floor of my flat. Chatted with her for a while. She told me to enjoy my youth to the fullest. No point regretting. Once its gone, it will never return, I felt that what she said was really true. 20 years later, I don’t think i will be able to experience what i did today. Or yesterday. Such as my first attempt at flying fox or pamper pole. Haha.. Gotta admit that she really gave me some good advice which i intend to follow.

Then went for the standardisation meeting. Standardisation was rather simple. More like a meeting to discuss places of uncertainty of information. Ate lunch at BK with Kelvin and Ridzwan, followed by a quick slack at Parkway that resulted in buying a first aid pouch, playing Call of Duty and CS with two additional people - Sheikh and Rizan(?). Then after that, a very small and quick dinner followed by home. Then i write this blog entry lor.

I seem to enter a new entry everyday. Maybe cause i am always online at night, every single day (unless my computer is dead or i am dead [tired])

Anyway, today was a rather relaxed day. With no school work to do, but got NP work to do. Just do it lor. If i don’t complete it asap, then it will pile up, and then i will be very stressed. Haha..

So with standardisation course over, and a whole week of action packed activities again before me, i shall end this blog entry, take a bath and … erm.. sleep? haha..

Tomorrow’s plan (if i don’t get a chance to blog) will be i go back to NAS MRL and print some FNDB notes. (save my pritner ink) then to TP for 1 hr of lesson. Then back to nas at 1500 for a meeting with the sec 4 NCOs who are in charge of the upcoming sec 1 camp (17 n 18 june) and then slack with ridzwan.. talking cock.. thinking of wild ideas.. Haha.. Oh yeah, i better read up on my CARC notes.. haha..wait.. was it CARC or PRSP?

Date: 11 June 2005 (does this blog put date for me already?)

Okay.. today was my first CCA @ poly session. Well, not really a session, it was an open house. Basically it was something like Adventure Training Facilities (ATF) in Basic Training Course Adventure Training Camp (BTC ATC). FLying Fox, high rope elements, low elements. Ops.. forgot to say what is the name of the CCA i had joined. It is called Experiential Learning Facilitators (ELF).

Yeah.. basically that was my day. Got slightly burnt, feeling exhausted but thrilled. Met a few very interesting people from other schools and the ELFs. After that was a short walk to the Bedok Jetty where they had the National Dragonboat Competition (?).

Sadly, by the time i got there, everyone was leaving. No, everyone had left. Leaving a few groups still gathering and cheering for this success/failure. Nevertheless, still managed to meet SQ at the busstop before i went home. Think he was shocked to see me.

Anyway, when i reached home i was reminded that tomorrow i had another action-packed, back-to-back day in less than 12 hours. Notes for the standardisation meeting i had not photocopied yet, i had just sent out a reminder for the meeting via sms. I think my this month Handphone bill will skyrocket. Me no money. Dammit.

Anyway, all these aside, there are still some good things to look forward to, yeah? Like the unit campfire, submitting of my Probationary Form, my sec 2 Xtra training and the upcoming LMS Course which i still have to plan a meeting, for all the instructors going, on the 19 of June 2005. 

Well, i guess that is life. Its either you do it, or no one else does it.

If not you, who?

If not here, where?

If not now, when?

Thanks for the inspiration cH, who had given it to me last year when i was training for the bi-annual Inter-unit Campcraft Competition.

If you can’t, you’re right