Ragon

Di once asked me. Why do i blog? why do i want to broadcast my whole life to the whole world to see and comment on? His question really struck me. I was wondering deeply about it when suddenly friday came. CMSK1 Assesment 2. Conversation circle. Lugging all my atc gear to TP.. then back to unit.. then to changi.. ouch.. 

atc was fun… learnt some new things.. hope that my cadets learnt much more than me. brought a pressure lamp to campsite.. but realise that due to some faulty parts. had to bring it back.. Bumboat ride to n fro was normal.. walking to campsite at night was normal too.. nothing abnormal.. haha.. this year’s atc was truely an unforgettable one.. i just hope that everyone felt the same way.. if i had a choice, i would never want atc to end..

After atc 05.. went home.. dumped gear.. went to east coast park 2 vist sheikh.. saw boon piang there.. so after that tagged along n sent boon piang home.. then since the bus we took was going to woodlands.. dropped by causeway point.. then back home.. really slept on the bus all the way.. too tired..

Monday is already 3/4 over already. Now just relaxing.. maybe i start doing some fndb notes 2nite.. besides, tmr there is lesson.. haiz.. pressure lamp is all fixed up.. its working perfectly now.. still got a lot more things to do.. perhaps this sem break i can complete what i wish to do.. also hope that next sem’s fridays i am free in the afternoon.

I now know the answer to the question effendi always ask me. Why would i want to spend my time at npcc when i can use it to sleep or enjoy myself? The answer is very simple.

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sometimes i wonder why i have to sleep during camp for when i close my eyes, i will not be able to see who i want to see.. or perhaps the pull of gravity on my eyelids are too heavy…
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oh yeah.. before i end.. just wanna bring up the point that there is a teachers’ day dinner on wed.. invited by my sec sch.. wait.. like no link hor..

IPC. Woke at 0645 after slping at an estimated time of 0300hrs.. fetched by HO kelvin, then picked up kelvin, zaid and desmond. Went to jetty. Did some paperwork (in the morning! omg) then was on the ferry to ubin. When reached, had a short meeting before deciding that we would not be cycling but walking instead. Thus we walked to campsite.

On the way saw area 7 cadets and some instructors. Then while drawing logistic from FIs, listened to the songs that i recorded from ridzwan. After log has been drawn, went to do orienteering, taught by zaki.. his orienteering skills are one of the best i have ever seen. Every detail is taken in. Sometimes the things that we missed or wouldn’t realise that we were doing he would point out. nice guy he is…

After orienteering, went back to campsite and rested. Total exhausted. we spent quite a long time walking. Places like "chicken feet", "bermuda triangle", mamam beach were visited. Didn’t know so many wonders existed in ubin. was totally amazed. Then after resting we had a debrief. before we all packed up and left for mainland..

Ate dinner (for most of us, our one and only meal for that day) at changi.. then went back to tamp to play a little CS and eat.. totally shag.. no mood to play.. haha.. after that saw yunhui and jingjing up their bus.. then ridzwan, kel n boon hui waited for mine.. then i boarded, and returned home.. haha

All in all.. today has been a tiring day.. but nevertheless a enjoyable one.. can’t wait to go for atc.. today’s ipc consisted of instructors from PCIs to HO.. from area 1, 9, 12 and some others which i think i missed out. was amazed.. thanks everyone for making today so worthwhile.  think i go slp already.. tmr have school, still going down unit for dry shoot @ PA…

Hmmz.. one of the rare times that i am blogging in the afternoon at 1727 hrs.

just got home from 0.38 revolver shooting compeition. Scored 130/200. Think the best shooter is still sheikh yeah? 166/200.. haha.. well done man.. all that muscle came into use after all.. lol..

This morning overslept, met sheikh, who forgot to bring his uniform! hahah..we went back to his block and got it, followed by a taxi trip to tao payoh range. Turned out we only got to shoot around 1pm. Hahaha.. wasted money to rush down. anyway, at the range the same thing always happens. Clashing of orders and instructions. what’s new huh..

visited beach road in the afternoon. saw a few things i would love to buy.. gloves.. binders, compass and so much more.. haha.. impractical stuff yeah? yep.. then after that took 197 home.. fell asleep.. too tired liao.. now sitting and blogging.. ignoring popiah for a while while i complete this entry.. maybe i go nap a while later.. haha.. or watch tv (again).. tomorrow think i will blog again, after the IPC..

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i read this in the straits times on 4th aug @ life! section. sorry if i’m infriging any copyright. tell me if i am, and i will take it down. its regarding happiness in one’s life

-> Have people in your life whom you love and who love you
-> Do things with your life that have meaning
-> Feel that, ultimately, you’re going to leave the world for a better place than when you found it. DO that by improving tour corner of the world, whether you’re a school teacher, running a great restaurant or tending a beautiful garden
-> Don’t be flippant when you say "Don’t worry, be happy." and don’t pretend that it’s easy to do so
-> Live life one day at a time
-> If you’re doing work you don’t enjoy, then your best bet is to keep on doing your best while you are at work — even if you don’t like it. That way, you develop a self-respect and skills, and will eventually have the opportunity to do something a step better than where you are currently.
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hello..
i am back to blog one entry before i sleep. The time i start is 0155 of 20 aug 2005.

Shall we start with this week? Nothing really happened actually. Monday was blogged. Tuesday was an average day. Two subjects, after that went down to unit. lesson started 30 mins later than the agreed time. am disappointed. Anyway, taught my stuff. Bearing. Map setting. MGR and stuff. Next week is man to man, to object, pacing and basically the rest of the stuff. after that went to meet al, hafiizah with ridzwan. Got pulled along. what to do. Recorded the atc song. Ops.. just remembered, haven upload. hahaha.. delay.. after that return home and that concluded the end of my day.

Wednesday was suppose to meet dinna for indemnity forms. Oh well.. waited 20 mins, noone turned up so i left. waste my time. dinna’s hp had no $$ or something liddat. so cannot call her. Ookay.. then she not at home.. Ookay.. so how was i suppose to know if she’s coming or not. So dun blame me.. my kite was flown.

Thursday got a FNDB lab test. Hmmz.. actually sitting between meiting + hui er.. but ms rita shift me away. too bad guys.. the plan failed. all the monitor tuning and stuff.. in the end failed.. lol. oh yeah.. then attended NE. A talk on flirting with danger - is crime the choice? haha.. pretty lame.. ppl were taking out mp3 players, handphones and laptops while the lectuer was talking. But then think again. just because they are forced to attend, they do this?  after that was INTSC agm. had to wear formal and do saikang. Hahhaha.. get food from mensa with knnth + liao + leo(?) then set up.. after refreshments had debrief then clear up the place. The soya bean drink the aunty prepared was nice to drink.. ahha.. kept on drinking it. after cleaning up, went to meet zaid and talked abt atc proposal. Printing a few documents then left school. After that met sheikh, went to mac n grabbed an apple pie while i looked thru his cadets amended indemnity forms… still got 2 unknown condition.. hmmz..

friday woke up late.. 12pm! lol.. watched a bit of tv then went to school. was arnd 5 mins late for carc test.. but nvm, in the end finished it before the set time of 1440 hrs. was pretty easy.. logic gates.. then after that had cmsk. so many ppl pon.. haha.. then basically talk cock session lor.. hhaha.. diao’.. ended half an hour earlier.. then went to unit.. just in time for dismissal.. hahaha diao’.. hey ridzwan.. u forgot to bring compass for ipc tomorrow.. how? hahah we use string and magnet ar?? haha.. then eat mac wif ridzwan then slack at busstop.. go home.. do npcc stuff.. after that had a bath, did my full u and now blogging.. oh yeah.. have to print indemnity form for ridzwan.. ops.. forgot to give my cadets their faulty indemnity form.. oh well.. have to do it soon.. else i’ll be dead.. haha

basically is too many things, too little time.. what’s new.. ahaha..

anyway, noticed a few things this week.. perhaps i shall just share my view point. Its just my view point..

i have noticed that many sec school students tuck out their school uniform which is supposed to be tucked in. I mean, what’s the point then, of the school asking them to tuck in? tucking out makes them look stupid.. cause to me a school uniform is to be tucked in. But if its say just the back of the shirt tucked out, i dun really mind.. but full shirt tuck out.. then sitting under void deck smoking.. haiz.. what is the world becoming to? 

Also, what does it imply on the school rules? that they are school rules so its meant only to be followed in school? or are they trying to say that when they grow up, only when it is necessary, then they follow the law, else they break the law n do what they want? if school rules cannot even be followed, i dun know what to say about this group of people. hopeless? maybe i am biased. i am sorry if i have offended anyone, but that is my view point.

next, when i was sitting on the bus going to unit on tuesday. I saw this couplem, a guy and a ger (duh, obviously), sitting in front of me. i was sitting at the back of a double decker bus, so they were facing perpendiuclar to me.. my first impression was that they were very caring.. okay.. then a few busstops later, they were playing around.. hitting each other n stuff. still nothing wrong.. next moment, i saw the guy trying to do something obscene to her.. n the ger to him. no worry, all their clothes remained on and nothing was revealed. but its just that in a public bus, with everyone looking at them, they still can touch here n there.. if they were sitting facing the same direction as me, as in like double decker bus upstairs, that arrangement, i woundn’t have mind. but in front of me he was trying to.. erm.. nvm.. yeah.. is just that they really dun mind ppl looking at them? surprised.. very open now a days.. and i don’t mean the clothes..

thirdly.. quite a number of times i have seen donations from people on the seats. newspapers, paper boxes.. drink cans etc.. hello? the bus is public.. people would be sitting on the seat after you.. can u ppl be more considerate n throw what u brought up the bus? not only that.. i have seen some ppl just throw their litter all over the place, even when the dustin is around 20 to 30 steps away from them. that is less than 10 metres! are they really that handicapped that they cannot even take 20 steps to throw their rubbish in the dustin? or are they so blind that they cannot see past 2 metres?

fourth.. i saw a guy on the bus recently while i was going to tampines. he had this really unkept hair.. shirt n pants on..  then on the belt loop, hung a knife.. those knifes they sell at the army shops. i was wonder why the hell would he need a knife? to eat? he dun trust the hawker centre knives they provide? i actually dun mind if they bring such stuff around.. but can they at least keep it in their pockets or what.. dun need to show the whole world..

hmmz.. i think i stop here la.. if i want to talk about all the stuff, will be too long liao.. anyway, its just that i sometimes wonder how fast our society is progressing. i was given my hp when i was in sec 3. now, i see primary school kids having their own handphones! what’s more, its a much more better brand and model than mine! are we using it because we need it or because everyone is doing so? last time i know that people were actually ashamed if they were told to move to the rear of the bus.. but now.. they can even stand and stare at the bus driver when he tells them to move to the rear..

when we take a step back and look at the bigger picture.. its like wow.. our society have advacned so much and so fast that sometimes we take things for granted that when technology fails us, we are left handicapped. unable to work, unable to progress.

anyway, think i shld stop. before i stop, just wanna say sorry to anyone who feels offended by my post today. this is just my view point. i hope you do not take it seriously. if u disagree, you can add a comment and i will listen to your side of the story…

today waking up at 5am.. go .38 competition shoot.. haiz.. later like yunhui say.. i instead shoot target board, i shoot bird.. lol.. roasted pigeon yea?

hahaha

just hope that things turn out for the better.. *waits for a shooting star on a quiet beach*

time end: 0240 hrs

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The men who try to do something and fail are definately better than those who do nothing and succeed
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I’m tired. The title says it all. What else can you feel when you are tired?

eyes closing.. Mind wondering.. thinking of the first thing that comes into your mind without yourself realising it. Tomorrow lessons at 9am. Yeah….

As i have told a number of people, i have lost all logical thinking. In this case, i have really lost all thinking. Logical or not. Sleepy.. Tomorrow is topography. Yeah. that topic. Haha.. Hmmz.. yeah…

Next week tues also is topography. Yeah.. print indemnity form. Yeah.. download the photos? sure.. where is the card reader? how about.. nvm..

arugh.. probably this is the worst time to blog. But anyway, i think i go sleep liao..

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"When you die, there will be three things on your headstone. A birth date, a dash and a death date. Make sure people remember you for the dash inbetween."
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Finally, its saturday. This weekend is special to me. Why? because i am free. No appointments to attend to. I mean, there was one, but i skipped it. not compulsory.

Anyway.. another week of school has come and gone. There isn’t really much that went on. Maybe i highlight a few things..

National day celebration. No school. went out n played pool wif yun hui, then back home to complete my tutorials and such. Wednesday felt sorry for myself as no holiday for me. hahah

thursday meet boon hui and joeyee and went for NHT appreciation dinner. Wasn’t a bad one. Just eat, talk and go home. hahaha.

Friday went to school, got carc case study, then got make up fndb lect, then go to NYAA presentation on sailing trip. Then back home again. Haha.. At home send out atc documents, and make some changes.

Going home, joeyee called me. Ask me do something that was quite insane, but i agree to it. what to do. He wants it. Hhahaha..

anyway, i dun think i have anything else to blog liao.. another day, another time.

Date: think it is reflected on my entry.
Time started: 0313 hrs
Time ended: 0330

Yep.. a week has come and gone. I am not sure how everyone did but i know how i faired in this week (of course, its my life). A week of school was boring nevertheless. But beneath the boring, there is the fun of it as this course that i am studying is what i wanted to know about computers. I hope i don’t end up hating it. Especially Java.. Haha..

I have decided to give up on the maths alumni mentoring scheme. Partly because i am going through motion, the other part is because the people i am mentoring do not show any interest in learning. After having flied my areoplane for more than 5 times, i feel that i should no longer waste my time on them. Even mdm Noor (lib aide) agrees with me.  I have told them countless of times that ultimately its not my grades, but theirs. But it hasn’t work. Well…

Tues met yun hui n jing jing and we go jalan at tampines.. fun day that was.. oh yeah.. i still need to treat her pool.. hey yun hui.. if u reading this, tell me when u want go play pool. My treat right? haha.. Think she too busy to read my blog.

Wednesday had a quick Cs meeting. Decided on the finer points of the camps + the manpower distribution. Look like there are still some changes and will have to contact zaid about that.

Friday was Campus Care Network day. So sorry Yijia for not going to your booth to steal the profit and eat free food. Lol. Kiddin’.. maybe next year ba.. In the afternoon went back to unit as classes ended at 1pm. Haiz. Why are questions asked when the answer can be found if they reflected it in their hearts? Why do people jump to conclusions due to actions alone? Feeling downcast. Maybe i didn’t try hard enough. Perhaps its really time to change.

Sat was ATC meeting 4. Meeting lor. With the external instructors. After that go entertain ourselves ^^ and then come back home watch Initial D(1st and 2nd stage) that liao lent me. Haha.. OOkay.. not a bad show.

Watching the show resulted in a late morning on sunday. Rushed down to Changi sea sports club and met ridzwan + zuls n we rented kayaking. chairman joined us later. Sunburnt… fun… icecream…

i have lost the ability to recall my memory (Primary and secondary). Think i have to go sleep already. i will be attending class in 7 hours time. Just hope that i won’t miss it. After that go OutRun2.. hjahaha.. no money liao…

Yep. Till our paths cross again.

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Who do you suppose decided birds are free? They can fly wherever they choose, but if there’s no branch for them to return to they might regret having wings, don’t you think? Perhaps true freedom is having a home to return to.
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